Here's to ALL the girls :)

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The ones who waited all night for him to text only to check your cell phone the next morning and be disappointed.

The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.

Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you and the next when he doesn't want to be anything at all.

Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if".

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "You're just not the one for me." or maybe, "things were going too fast, I'm just not ready." Then later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.

The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."

The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.

Here's for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart ... again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.

Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When your song comes on the radio, turn the station.

When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.

It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

When it rains..it pours :)

I miss the rain. I miss hearing it pitter patter on my window sill. I have always associated the rain with blessings, and whenever it rained I was always inspired that blessings were on their way. In my life I try to be thankful for everything. The best advise I got was probably not to rely on short-term pleasures. It is very easy to compromise long term goals and real happiness for something that is essentially available. In my life I have sometimes settled for something that I thought was beneficial. And sometimes life teaches me otherwise. Life is made up of so many choices and consequences that come out of it. I base my choices on what I believe in, and those beliefs are usually the outcomes of a series of choices I had to make.


1. I believe that the rain does bring blessings.
2. I believe that  the first people I need to accept - good or bad - are my family.
3. I believe that you have to stand up for what you believe in.
4. I believe that I would rather be kind than feared.
5. I believe that you should NEVER EVER apologize for who you are.
6. I believe that children should play as much as they can because grown up games are not that fun.
7. I believe that looking good is feeling good.
8. I believe that people who belittle others are the lowest kind of specimen and they should be brushed off.
9. I believe that compassion, kindness, and being humble should be practiced.
10. I believe in the saying "kanya kanya lang yan". If people only learned how to live and accept each other, the world would be a happier place.
11. I believe that I don't need to EVER make excuses for the right man.
12. I believe that no matter how small, everyone should live their dream.
13. I believe that you should always surround yourself with positive people.
14. I believe that you should always ask help from God and thank Him also.
15. I believe that it is ok to make mistakes, as long as one learns from them.
16. I believe that there are three words to be learned in life: it goes on.

Given any situation, people do not have the same choices. What may be a good choice for others can be bad for someone else. Ultimately it all comes down to what people really believe. Sometimes people settle for less because they think hoping for something more can potentially be heartbreaking. Other times people pass up on opportunities because they believe they are not good enough. And with just the amount of right timing and good fortune, people often find themselves in a place where they are blessed enough to be...themselves. Blessings come in all shapes and forms, it is just a matter of how you look at it.

I think I have changed, and will continue to be better with every choice I make. Sure, I have left out some things in my life, but it all turned out to be for the better. I don't miss those things and maybe that is the key to happiness. Maybe we hurt because people don't know how to let go of the past. Like I said, life goes on..everything goes on until there is nothing left.

Trials. Choices. Consequences. Blessings. It's all just a cycle. Don't be stationary, move.

Go Out and VOTE!

Go out and vote. It's your right. :]

I just got home from the precinct, and I'm telling you...automated elections? awesome. I had to be at the precinct  30 minutes before 7 A.M because I know if I get there late I'd probably be stuck in line with a bunch of hot headed people. So glad I went early. Kahit late nagstart yung voting, buti nalang ang daming nakaka aliw na observations sa pila. Hahaha

1. IBANG KLASE PAGKA CHISMOSA NG MGA BOTANTE. Natatawa nalang ako kanina habang nakapila. Lahat ata ng klase ng chismis tungkol sa mga kandidato narinig ko na. Hindi lang sila chismosa..echusera pa. :]

2. (KAHIT HINDI PA TUMITINGIN) BOTANTE: WALA AKO SA LISTAHAN. Mga tao talaga.

3. NA-USO ANG "SAMPLE BALLOT" SA LABAS NG PRECINCT. Naman kasi diba? Hindi yan sample ballot. Ang tawag diyan KODIGO. Ang tawag diyan? BAWAL ATE BAWAL!

4. LUMALAKAS ANG MGA SENIOR CITIZEN. Akala mo lang fragile..pero hindi. hahaha Ang galing kasi parang sila pa mauuna makipagsapakan pag may sumingit sa pila.

5. PROUD NA ANG SHY SENIOR CITIZENS. Noon hiyang hiya sila magbigay ng SC card sa restaurants. Pero sa voting? halos rinig sa BUUUUUOOOOOONG precinct yung sigaw nila na.."SENIOR CITIZEN AKO!" special daw kasi dapat.

6. NAGIGING INSTANT BARKER ANG MGA BOTANTE. Magugulat ka nalang may sumisigaw sa likod ng pila ng: "SINO PO DITO MAY KOTSE NA RTY 323?? NAKAHARANG!" hahaha

They said na if all goes well, election results might be out by tomorrow. Although, some precincts are having a hard time since some of the machines aren't even working. The experience was exciting because it was new - new process, alot of new and young voters, and people are more vigilant. I hope everything turns out well. 

Filipinos go out and VOTE! :]