Change is a good thing after all

Change and chances. 

I woke up one morning to a complete change. Everything was the same, I had the same curtains and the same pictures were hanging on my wall...but everything felt different. The first thing that came into my mind? RUN. This wasn't how I planned it, but there it was, the horror staring right at me. It wasn't the kind of change that had a clear reason to be for the better. And it was the worst morning to wake up to. 

It's something that caught me off guard and frankly something I wouldn't choose for myself. But I guess the change was long overdue. I knew it then and I know it now, I had to alter something because it just wouldn't fit. And cutting that little piece of cloth was probably the hardest I chose to do. Cut your losses, ok lang yan. Then I thought, nalulungkot ba ako kasi feeling ko nagkamali ako..or pwede ko isipin na dapat na ako maging masaya kasi tama na lahat. 

Honestly? It was hard (kinda painful) pero at the end of the day it was more of a relief. Siguro kasi even if I know na I still have my days na ok ako and minsan hindi, eventually it'll all get better. I had to take the chance for change. Kung kailan malakas pa loob ko. And maybe its about time to dive into the unknown. I know I can choose to be happier. Somewhere along the road, i'll thank myself for doing this. I'll thank change for coming into my life. So whoever is only settling and gets thrown a surprise without much choice..take it. There's a much bigger world out there, better people to meet and more meaningful experiences to have. Open your mind to the fact that maybe YOU need to break the cycle. YOU need to choose to be happier. I had to leave some things in the past, but maybe that's what I need to have a better future. Some people might not agree with me, but like I said..kanya kanya naman yan eh. 

What's important is each day I forget and every night before I go to sleep I think about my future. I think about tomorrow and my plans. Change is a good thing after all. 

MMK - April 19 2010 -

"Maybe that's what it all comes down to. Love, not as a surge of passion, but as a choice to commit to something, someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way. And maybe making that choice, again and again, day in and day out, year after year, says more about love than never having a choice to make at all."  

I woke up today and reminded myself that I had to do something for my bestfriend's anniversary. I came up with the usual short anniversary wish. I was actually as far as posting it already, but then I realized I owe them more than that. I've been with them throughout the 2-year relationship and I've never met two people who were more right for each other. 

It started with a girl who prayed for something else. And a boy who told himself he wasn't going to be serious.  Now, two years later they are still choosing to be together. I always knew you'd make it. Two years..three..four..forever AND EVER! I read somewhere na everything all boils down to choice. It's a day to day thing to actually live through it and choose to love the one you're with. And somehow it's a great feeling na you get to have someone to choose. I know it wasn't the easiest ride for the two of you, but that is what i'm most proud of: despite the differences you still choose to stick around.

To my bestfriend and her boyfriend:

Life didn't make it easy for you, but I'm so glad love did. Like I always tell you, at the end of the day you really have to be thankful that you have each other. If other people knew how to appreciate and love the one they're with, life would be easier. And I'm so happy God keeps on blessing your relationship with the most beautiful love story. Misunderstandings and conflicts? Normal lang yun and don't let it get you down. Sometimes, may mga ugali na lumalabas, probably something na either one of you does not like. It's a part of being in a relationship and getting to know each other. But your love? It endured the differences. As Shakespeare said, "Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds." It took more than love to make your relationship work. Siguro that serves as a lesson to everyone, that love comes when you don't seek it and it stays not with just love alone.

Bestfriend, I've always told you how proud I am that you have been so brave to love and be loved. Boyfriend ni bestfriend, I'm glad she is with someone who accepts her for who she is. Thank you for being that little spark of faith that love can actually happen to someone. Happy Second Anniversary you two :) 

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